The other day, I read this quote “The first step in crafting a life you want is to get rid of everything you don’t.” — Joshua Becker, Becoming Minimalist
Great motto. I also tend to take things very literal. I’m a serious person, which is weird because my favorite thing is to laugh, make jokes, and not be serious. I’m definitely still trying to find a balance between who I am and who I wish I were and making those align, which includes learning how to lighten up.
I took that quote literal the other day but not by applying it to materialistic things, I decided to somewhat apply it to my mind, i.e. try and declutter my brain.
And what happened when I tried to blow away the clutter clouds? Easy, the things I want to do appear. The things I always want to do. For some reason (sarcasm), over the past 3 ish years, I have slowly taken away the things that I enjoy. I deprive myself of having the things I love like: playing records, practicing yoga, journaling, watching documentaries. Basically, the hobbies and likes and loves that make me who I am, I no longer even pay attention to. Or – I may allow myself the thought of possibly doing whatever activity, but I never get to it, or find an excuse not to. I don’t allow myself to relax or enjoy things. I’m so weiiiiirrrrdddd.
I do kid stuff with kids all day long and some mom’s out there might be able to throw on a tv show or movie and relax during a nap time or even in the evening when not a whole lot is going on. But for whatever reason, I feel guilty that i’m not doing anything productive and if I were to put anything other than a cartoon on the tv, well it would probably be HGTV or something else that passes the time. And I’m not really getting anything beneficial out of a show like that (a laugh, a reason not to eat meat, etc. etc.) And FYI: There is no tv on right now, the kids are chasing each other and I’m trying to not pay attention and get these words out asap.
However, at this point, I’m kind of burned out. I need a reason to keep going and feel like myself. Give myself some self love and purpose, outside of being a mom and taking care of everybody’s shit.
So, like I said, I read that quote and tried to apply it. I had been thinking about going for a Masters degree, and I’m still in that thought process, but what I’m drawn too and always come back to, and what always seems to open a door for me at the right time is YOGA. And another important element: Ayurveda.
Until recently, many things in my life have been unsettled and now, things are finally starting to settle a bit. I mean, every important stressor that can impact someone’s life, usually only experiencing one or two at a time, I experienced almost all of them in a short amount of time.
So needless to say, I’ve felt not like myself.. and not like myself for a substantial amount of time has made me wonder what the hell I’m doing.
I’m happy to announce that I’ve gone to -not one- but two yoga classes over the past two weeks. I’ve been working with Mom’s Clean Air Force under their Mom’s Clean Air Action team spreading climate change awareness in the state of Virginia. I worked out a schedule at Wellness Pursuits to teach a yoga series starting September 11th. And I signed up for Katie Silcox’s Ayurveda Lifestyle Coach program. I took a step forward and things are lining up in a direction. Luckily, it all works well with my desires to always be available for my kids, because that’s pretty important. But you gotta be able to step back so you can appreciate things.
I also have a strong desire to write and write a lot. I thought an MA in Creative writing is something I should pursue and am still thinking about it. I’ve also considered an MA in transpersonal psychology. I don’t know if either will happen this year, but I hope to get a couple bylines, publish a poem and if things continue to align correctly, I would like to see myself combine yoga and ayurveda with writing.
Now, with that said, could a blog like “A place to flop” be a front for a creative writer/Yogini? I don’t know. Do I need to go on a branding spree? Sometimes I wish I could just URL my name and put everything there, writing + photography + yoga/wellness but I think my name is too weird – SarahChrosniak.com — ehhhhhhhhhh…
It’s close to dinner time, so I’m going to leave you with a few links that I thought were pretty cool:
From Mom’s Clean Air Force: Here are some diagrams and a downloadable PDF on How Air Pollution Harms Your Body
EWG has the these two apps/guides that tell you if a product or food is harmful or not and gives it a rating according to how bad it is. Sometimes I can’t find what I’m looking for and I found a backup guide called the Good Guide.
Charlottesville has a gofundme page for all the victim’s medical expenses. This makes me so sad. Help out if you feel compelled to do so. And if you need some more information on ways to help out this situation or hate in the world in general, Girlboss wrote this: Overwhelmed by Events in Charlottesville? Here’s how you can help
Lastly but leastly 😉 One of my favorites is hosting a book giveaway on her blog. If you’re into journaling and creativity, you should check her out: Jen Morris Creative. She’s giving away a copy of Write to the Centre. The contest closes 8.31.17 – see her site for the rule!
Until next time…