“..But, just start writing,” I say, pretty much always to myself because who else hears me talk but this high-strung toddler and the non-stop smiling infant. It’s been hard to come up with that very first blog post. I mean, I can come up with about 1 million ideas a day and about 968,354 of those said ideas are GREAT ideas, but I have allowed ZERO time for getting them on paper, or this blog. Don’t worry, most of that great idea talk is sarcasm.
But today is different. Today is the day. Recently, someone who I see on the daily ( this person is special, and I’ll have to give some details on him later on) said to me “Sarah, tomorrow is a new day” as I was sweeping the floor for the 9th time that day, all I could think was “well, hell yeah it is.” Today, I decided that with this very minute (MI-NOOT) amount of time I will have for myself because everyone is out of the house and the baby is sleeping, that I will not check emails and sign all of those health care, mental health, and save the environment petitions, I will not take a shower, I may not eat lunch (but I will probably sneak that last donut,) I will not sweep again or clean anything for that matter, I will not do the crossword puzzle (to keep my mind active,) .. Nope.. I’m going to start that damn blog.
And here I am. It’s nice to finally meet you.
I’ve wanted to start this blog for quite a while, so long in fact, that I can’t actually tell you when I first started this account. I’ve had blogs in the past and I’ve written real articles that have been published in local newspapers, entertainment mags, and various places on the web. By the way, the baby is awake now so I’m juggling him and this typing thing. HAHA.
However, life gets in the way sometimes and you do different things and try new things and sometimes the things you want to do, you may (or may not) want/have/need to take a break from. Luckily, even though I haven’t written, published, or had a blog in recent years, I have gained a plethora of knowledge on random topics that will give me an endless amount of material to write about. So, I guess it all works out.
The hardest part of all of this is probably balancing family life and all those responsibilities with, for lack of a better descriptive set of words, my own life. Because when you have family, their lives become your life and my life just revolves around everyone else’s. Which is alright, it kind of comes with the “having kids” territory, I suppose. Personally, I have a hard time letting myself do any kind of “my life” stuff anyways. Let me explain what I mean; “my life” things are like self-care, teaching or taking yoga, writing this blog post and future posts, writing at all (journaling, poetry, writing for business etc.,) watching a movie I’d enjoy, reading a book, taking photographs, baking cupcakes, getting a pedicure, starting my writing business, going back to school or simply taking a solo walk outside. It’s some sort of extreme mom guilt combined with some weird subconscious affliction that makes me believe that I don’t deserve to do these things for myself. It’s weird, I know. But that’s a major contribution to why I haven’t started a blog. And, I’m a procrastinator too.
I’m also afflicted by habitually worrying. Gosh, I worry so much, it’s crazy. If I spent the same amount of energy on something productive or something that I liked as I do on worrying about stuff, man, I’d probably be incredibly accomplished. Maybe.
So, how’s that for a first blog post?! My very first real blog post is a post about all the reasons why I haven’t been able to write a blog post. A giant excuse post. Well, at least it feels good. Like I said, I guess it all balances out.
Until next time!
The featured image is our raised bed garden. 🙂